Solitude
In life, one must find solitude, a resting place where peace resides.
Once upon a time I knew exactly who I was but somehow along the road I've travelled, I've lost sight of who that is. I've spent the last 5 years giving so much of myself to a job; a job that threw me away like yesterday's trash. I believed if I gave more than was expected of me, my job would be secure. But here I am unemployed as of two weeks ago and it had nothing to do with my performance and everything to do with who I wasn't. I'm am not a player of political games, not a person who cheats her way to the top but instead a person with an independent mind, a person with class, and above all else - respect for herself. I've learned the hard way that if you become a sell out, the goods you are marketing will soon be worthless.
So here I am on another path to rediscovery. I've started college again working towards another degree in Computer Info Systems Management, (apparently a MA in English is worthless in IT). In the two weeks I've been unemployed I have made a bit of progress by remembering that before I so willingly gave up my 'Solitude', I was a writer. A person with the ability to write words that made people feel something. Feeling something is usually the first casualty and the hardest to recover. I suppose that posting on this blog is an attempt to regain a piece of myself lost along the way. So I'll write and hopefully someone will listen (including myself).
I'm sorry to hear you lost your job. That totally sucks ass. Cool that you've gone back to school though! Good for you!
I hope you continue to write here. I've always loved reading your words and hearing your stories.
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NWC, can I ask you a question though---is it me and my firefox or is your font really small?
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I'm so glad you found me. I made the text bigger...can you tell me if it looks better?
Losing your job sucks...but I think it may be a blessing in disguise. At least my kids are enjoying having mommy home.
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Much easier to read. Thanks!
I always enjoyed staying home with my two when they were little. I was fortunate enough to stay home til they were both in school full time. We had to cut back on our spending and dining out and all the 'extra' crap, but those were some of the best times for me as a mom--so totally worth it. I hope that you are able to find another job, but until then I hope you enjoy your one on one special time alone with each of your little ones.
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I'm listening, too. I've always loved your blog. You come from such a different place than I do...and yet really, not so very far away.
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Isn't that funny how two worlds can seem miles apart when in reality they are right next door.
I always loved your blog...inspiring.
How are you kids?
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They are great....growing and changing. Thanks for asking.
I haven't written as much lately, but you're always welcome over to read my thoughts.
So glad to see you here again.
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